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I’m stuck.

My content schedule is a habit profile on Sunday, a podcast on Tuesday (recorded on Monday), and an article on Thursday.

Today would be a Thursday, and I’ve got nothin’ in the pipeline. Nothing written, and no solid ideas or drafts.

I can feel my brain trying to get in gear, but there’s no fuel.

So . . .

I committed to being authentic and transparent on this journey, and I decided to practice that today.

I decided I would just pause and share where I am right this moment, how I got here, and where I’m going next. If you’re feeling stuck too, perhaps it will be helpful.

Why am I here?

I’ve spent the last 10 days or so actively leading – lots of problem solving, public speaking, and meetings. (And I’m an introvert.)

I’m using a lot of energy to rework my eating habits. (It’s working. I’ll share more about this in next week’s progress report.)

I’ve had 2 full nights of sleep in the last 8 days.

I’ve haven’t had time to think or read.

I’m empty.

But I’m committed.

All I can do is sit down, start writing, and let the raw truth emerge. There’s no time or energy for polishing. It might be ugly, but it WILL be done.

I think that’s what’s different now.

I’ve decided that anything worth doing is worth doing consistently – and poorly, if that’s what it takes.

In the past, I would have been afraid – worried about what others might think. Uncomfortable with admitting that this journey is hard, and it doesn’t always make sense.

Now, I realize that failure (days like this) are the price we pay for progress. It’s not free.

So I reframe it as an investment. And then it’s an easy decision – move forward, no matter what.

But I can’t get comfortable with ugly.

I must quickly figure out how to refuel.

I can start with prioritizing my sleep again. Staying on track with food and exercise is also a key, and that’s in place.

Then I’ll need to start refilling my buckets: reading, thinking, processing, and praying.

After that, I know the ideas will come.

They always do.