More than anything, I am reminded about how easy it is to live in default mode.

For me, that mode is primarily reactive, but easily justified to friends and family. It can sound like I’m still making good decisions, but there’s a fallacy there. It typically doesn’t represent conscious choices. Instead, it’s an agreement to stay with the herd and follow the rules. It’s almost completely fueled by fear of some sort.

The scariest part is that it was so hard for me to recognize that I was living this way.

Two weeks ago, it hit me. The feeling had been brewing for months or even years, but April 12 was different. It was as if I woke up with a new pair of glasses and could see clearly for the first time.

I started a journey, without knowing how it would end. I made some progress, and then I stumbled. I failed at my first attempt and had 500+ miles of driving to reflect. I’m proud to say that I won the mental battle this time. And I think I’m stronger for it.

I completed the one thing that I hadn’t been able to do for myself, despite years of positive intent and hundreds of hours of thought and effort.

I had to ask, “What made the difference this time?”

Two things:

1. I chose “forward” instead of “default,” without knowing exactly where the road would lead me. (The funny thing is, we never know where default leads either. We just know the herd will be with us.)

2. I had a small community of support. 16 people stepped out to say, “I support you.” (To each of you, I am forever grateful.)

It doesn’t sound like much. But it was enough.

And it ultimately shaped what I created.

When I started this, I was going to create products that helped people actually make many of the changes they wanted in their lives. Given the number of people I’m coaching or mentoring, I felt qualified to do that. If you want to eat better, get healthier, be more productive, or improve another habit, I can usually help. Self improvement has likely been a obsession for most of my life, and certainly the focus of my studies over the past decade.

For the toughest goals, though . . .  the ones that really make a difference, we need something more. We need a small community. We need people to jointly encourage us and hold us accountable.

I don’t know how I missed that piece of the puzzle for so long, but it’s in place now. And I’m ready to share it with you.

Today, I’m proud to announce the May 1 launch of habitHQ, an online community that will support you in achieving the goals you set for yourself. We’ll encourage you, provide accountability, and teach you how to use the latest research to program yourself for success.

For less than $1 a day, you’ll have access to a library of resources and a community of support. Your inaugural habitHQ membership will entitle you to every personal development product and service I’ve developed or will develop, without an increase in price – ever.

I’ll be the first to say that it’s not for everyone. If you’re comfortable with life and want to stay that way, this probably isn’t the best fit.

But if you have that internal hunger that won’t go away, that feeling that you’re called to do something more, to have a significant impact in this world, welcome to the family. You’re home.

For this inaugural launch, I’m opening up 20 spots. I think it’s important for the community to start very small and for me to be able to give everyone the attention they deserve. Plus, I want to be able to use their feedback to make the community even stronger.

If you want to be sure you’re in the founding group, you can go ahead and click here to reserve your spot. It’s possible they might be taken quickly.

If you have any questions, please email me at kendrakinnison [at] gmail [dot] com or call me at 361.589.9522. Or, you can comment below, and I’ll do my best to respond quickly.

Let’s choose forward together.